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    April 02

    领悟

    我以为我会哭, 但是我没有
    我只是怔怔望着你的脚步
    给你我最后的祝福
    这何尝不是一种领悟,让我把自己看清楚

    当我看到我深爱过的女人
    竟然像孩子一样无助
    这何尝不是一种领悟

    啊!一段感情就此结束
    啊!一颗心眼看要荒芜
    我们的爱若是错误
    愿你我没有白白受苦
    若曾真心真意付出,就应该满足

    啊!多么痛的领悟
    你曾是我的全部
    只是我回首来时路的每一步
    都走的好孤独
    只愿你挣脱情的枷锁
    爱的束缚 任意追逐
    别再为爱受苦
     
     
     
    March 26

    Read ping and tracert result.

    At the very early time, i had learned all the ping and tracert command, but when i see the records that prompt out from the screen, i can't comment any for it.
    But now, i able to read/study a bit the ping and tracert result. Share with you guys.
     
    for example : i trace from my site to the route-views.oregon-ix.net
     
    C:\Documents and Settings\Fein>tracert route-views.oregon-ix.net
    Tracing route to route-views.oregon-ix.net [128.223.51.103]
    over a maximum of 30 hops:
      1    <1 ms    <1 ms    <1 ms  203.223.134.1
      2    <1 ms    <1 ms    <1 ms  aims-dia-kl-bo01.aims.com.my [203.223.128.129]
      3    <1 ms    <1 ms    <1 ms  202.76.239.1
      4    <1 ms    <1 ms     1 ms  202.76.224.46
      5     1 ms    <1 ms     1 ms  202.76.224.3
      6     3 ms     4 ms     4 ms  Gi0-2-407.gw1.kul1.asianetcom.net [202.147.33.145]
      7     4 ms     4 ms     4 ms  gi2-0-0.gw3.kul1.asianetcom.net [202.147.48.146]
      8    10 ms    10 ms     9 ms  po4-0.gw3.sin1.asianetcom.net [202.147.48.214]
      9    91 ms    91 ms    90 ms  po15-0-1.cr2.nrt1.asianetcom.net [202.147.32.94]
     10   209 ms   210 ms   209 ms  po1-1-1.gw3.lax1.asianetcom.net [202.147.61.185]
     11   218 ms   218 ms   217 ms  po5-0.gw1.lax1.asianetcom.net [202.147.61.201]
     12   193 ms   192 ms   193 ms  4.78.192.53
     13   201 ms   198 ms   198 ms  vlan89.csw3.LosAngeles1.Level3.net [4.68.20.190]
     14   196 ms   197 ms   198 ms  ae-83-83.ebr3.LosAngeles1.Level3.net [4.69.137.41]
     15   199 ms   212 ms   200 ms  ae-2.ebr3.SanJose1.Level3.net [4.69.132.9]
     16   205 ms   201 ms   213 ms  ae-93-93.csw4.SanJose1.Level3.net [4.69.134.238]
     17   224 ms   234 ms   234 ms  ae-91-91.ebr1.SanJose1.Level3.net [4.69.134.205]
     18   244 ms   252 ms   252 ms  ae-3.ebr1.Seattle1.Level3.net [4.69.132.50]
     19   240 ms   240 ms   241 ms  ge-10-1.hsa2.Seattle1.Level3.net [4.68.105.71]
     20   253 ms   253 ms   253 ms  nero-gw.Level3.net [63.211.200.246]
     21   253 ms   254 ms   254 ms  ptck-core2-gw.nero.net [207.98.64.138]
     22   262 ms   262 ms   262 ms  eugn-core2-gw.nero.net [207.98.64.1]
     23   256 ms   256 ms   255 ms  eugn-car1-gw.nero.net [207.98.64.165]
     24   253 ms   253 ms   253 ms  uonet9-gw.nero.net [207.98.64.67]
     25   259 ms   260 ms   260 ms  ge-5-2.uonet1-gw.uoregon.edu [128.223.3.1]
     26   265 ms   262 ms   263 ms  ge-0-2.route-views.uoregon.edu [128.223.51.103]

    Trace complete.
     
    And a reverse tracert.
    route-views.oregon-ix.net>traceroute 202.76.224.46
    Type escape sequence to abort.
    Tracing the route to 202.76.224.46
      1 vl-51.uonet1-gw.uoregon.edu (128.223.51.2) [AS 3582] 4 msec 0 msec 0 msec
      2 0.ge-0-1-0.uonet8-gw.uoregon.edu (128.223.3.8) [AS 3582] 0 msec 0 msec 4 msec
      3 vl-205.ge-2-0-0.core0-gw.pdx.oregon-gigapop.net (198.32.165.217) 0 msec 4 msec 4 msec
      4 vl-201.xe.pdx-losa.oregon-gigapop.net (198.32.165.194) 64 msec 24 msec 24 msec
      5 so-3-3-0.0.rtr.seat.net.internet2.edu (64.57.28.39) [AS 11537] [MPLS: Label 100000 Exp 0] 52 msec 48 msec 52 msec
      6 64.57.29.6 [AS 11537] 52 msec 52 msec 52 msec
      7 te1-2-10G.ar2.SJC2.gblx.net (67.17.109.106) [AS 3549] 136 msec 72 msec 72 msec
      8 Asia-Netcom-Corporation.ge-7-1-0.409.ar1.SJC2.gblx.net (64.209.88.126) [AS 3549] 52 msec 52 msec 56 msec
      9 po14-1-1.cr1.nrt1.asianetcom.net (202.147.50.134) [AS 10026] 160 msec 160 msec 160 msec
     10 po13-0.gw2.sin1.asianetcom.net (202.147.32.89) [AS 10026] 264 msec 260 msec 264 msec
     11 po3-0-0.gw3.kul1.asianetcom.net (202.147.48.209) [AS 10026] 400 msec 400 msec 400 msec
     12 gi0-3.gw1.kul1.asianetcom.net (202.147.48.145) [AS 10026] 400 msec 424 msec 400 msec
     13 AIMS-Sdn-Bhd.gw1.kul1.asianetcom.net (202.147.33.146) [AS 10026] 404 msec 404 msec 380 msec
     14 202.76.224.14 [AS 24218] 408 msec 412 msec 412 msec
    Initially from my site trace to the oregon router. So it starting from my site to the oregon site, so it starting from my gateway to my router and go through the asianetcom, LosAngeles, some US there router, and finally go to the end point. We can see that the time is around 200ms, it is consider faster. Let say is beyond than 500ms (experience!?!?), it is consider high latency(means slow). From malaysia to US just 200ms!??! not faster ???!??!
     
    From the reverse router provided, it is the same thing, it starting from the oregon router and it's router, then asianetcom then our router. It also around 400msec, it is acceptable.
     
    Now, Why the traffic we go and the traffic we back is going through different path??!?!? It is because every ISPs is link with different upstream and their borders gateway will decide to go through the "shortest" pathes they choice.
     
    Then why the traffic will go more hops(router) and back less hops(router)?!?!?!? As i know, it was because every having their own upstream, if the provider don't have the direct peering with the specific provider, then it will go through an alternative ways. For example,it TM not peering with maxis directly, we might need to go throught TM-Digi-maxis, Will increase one hop between it.
     
    Then why they don't want direct peering, is more faster what?!?!? ya.. is more faster, but the things is -- the two ISP provider don like each others(kidding), it was because money lo, let say TM buy bandwidth from Maxis is more expensive then buying traffic with Digi, then why TM buy it?!??! all is because money ma... haha
     
    Now malaysia got MyIX liao, don worry.. if wanna to launching the local website is more faster, they stick together liao ma.. ahha
     
    What is MyIX?!?!? go check google la.... google can shows to you de...
     
    by the end... now very morning lei..  sleepy la... If i am wrong.. don shoot me... if i am right.. please comment me.... say that : leng zai fei...Hot
    March 24

    让人不爽

     
    交通部门竟然有办法给shaman到大部分的地区甚至让停在家门前的车
    警察部门竟然无法抓到大部分的罪犯
    是警力分配不均还是另有原因?
    让人气愤..
     
    四周的大选宣传旗帜有人挂
    却无人收
    让人杜澜..
     
    经常看到警车巡逻
    却没有看到警员巡逻
    驾车经过不下车
    叫巡逻?还是兜风?
     
     
     
     
     
    March 23

    最近比较烦~

    看了老师嫁老大..
    两只抢的电影一向来都不错..
    有笑点...有创意..give u 4/5 star~
    还有一颗星来期许你有更好的创作
     
    决定去旅行了...bali.. 2/sep-5/sep
    机票买了..... 旅店定了...等待...
    觉得还好.. 希望每年都有一次机会旅行..
    尝试叫人一起去... 但是嫌麻烦..
    有些人有很吊...就算了
     
    工作还好... 学到东西...
    工钱不高有一点在意...
     
    found somethings useful.. network tools?!?!?!??!
    telnet it and play play~
     
    February 18

    Fear ~

     
    Recently i working on shift.. feels not good...
    cant go for dinner.. cant go out for celebrate..
     
    i start curious that.. i need to work for my whole life?!?!
    but.. if doesn't go to work also donno can do what....
    shit!!!
     
    January 23

    It's the time~

    Chinese New Year coming soon, quite happy to that...
    i will back Sitiawan to visit my grandmother..
    and my ang pow very big.. don jealous me.
    working with rack.. ~~
    currently hope to learn somethings useful....
     
    haiz seldom write blog already.. don know need to write wat... and no passion on it already...
     
    i thinking of write somethings that i learnt in this company.. donno it good or not..
    if like that .. then everyday can write somethings....haha.  not bad idea..
     
    planning to do it..haha
     
     
    January 04

    work~

    Finally start working for a few day...
    feeling not so good...
    because i dono it is the things that i needs it...
    because i feel that starting to settle myself into a new environment is hard...
    but however ... hope can stand for two years..
     
    hope can make some friend in the  future..
    hope can learn many things at here...
    hope the office don always so cool... aircon also need money ~~
     
     
    September 10

    Claim~

    Bad luck ...
    today i go to asia life building to claim my hospitalization fee's..
    i get a RM 30.00 penalty for parking...
    then get cheated by the parking guys there RM2...
    after that paid RM 10 for the guide...
     
    haiz... all is money....
     
    hopefully that my insurance can help me claim for RM4000++.. 
    or not sure die...
     
    Recover + ing!!!!!!!!!!! 
    September 06

    suffer from appendistics

     
    last sunday i was suffer for appendicitis..
    very pain a...
    after that go to pantai hospital(very expensive)..
    after the operation i coma for one night...
     
    i stay at the hospital, two day one night...
    it cost me 5,000..++
    alamak...
    i want brankrupt liao....
     
    hope my life insurance can claim more~~
     
    August 07

    探望婆婆

    不久前
    我探望在老人院的婆婆
    七十八岁
     
    让我想起以前小时候她很疼我
    我婆婆照顾我的时候
    我才感受到亲情的温暖
    因为父母不在
    每个早餐都有人准备
    对我来说是幸福的事
     
    我经常到处跑
    很坏
    但是我有婆婆等我 疼我
     
    现在她老了不能动
    子女将她安置在老人院
    时间的流逝
    承受寂寞的岁月
     
    婆婆跟我妈妈说她很‘可怜‘
    我很难过
    在探望婆婆的时候
    妈妈告诉我别逗留太久
    久了 婆婆会哭
    会不舍
     
    其时探望的时候我已经哭了
    寂寞的神情让我心痛
    寂寞绝对会杀死人
     
    太多太多的体会
     
    August 04

    驾车无聊的时候

    驾车无聊的时候

    今天驾车的时候
    有三条大马路
    左边慢
    中间中等
    右边最快
    我驾在右边
    博命贴近前面的车,逼他让路
    通常会让
    直到靠近一辆速度跟我不相上下的车时
    他不让路
    我一直根着它 他很黑 加上夜色暗淡
    我无法看清在它前方的车
     
    看不清他走的路
     
    我不敢越过它
    跟着跟着就习惯了
     
    追随的心
     
    发现跟着也不错 有一个目标 不容易失焦
    我想过割旁边的路
    但是旁边的车速不适合我
     
    不适合我
     
    最后我没有越过他
    我到家了
     
    到家了
    May 25

    情-亲

     
    我欲为情,情不为我
    我不为亲,亲不与我
    即为兄长,焉能罔顾廷纲

    不尽其责,汗颜为人兄
    不伺其职,愧对天地
    眼中泪水,不知试去多少
     
    两情若是久长时,又岂在朝朝暮暮
    我欲为你留,奈何事不与我
    我知你,费尽心神为你好
    只望你明白我心中胶结
    腾出缘分下的宽容

    如果说时间能证明什么
    我希望那是--牢固的心
    April 23

    i care about u... i hope u willing to listen to me!!!

     
    sorry!!!! i know i am wrong.. please forgive me....
    i care watever things you are angry about it..
    i not mean to cheat u that...
    hope u can forgive me....
     
    somethings really want to tell you...
    i care about u... i hope u willing to listen to me....
    sometime i know i am wrong..
    i keep somethings from u just to avoid that to make u angry....
    but i am guys...  somethings i like to do is different one ....
    hope u can understand me....
    i just a normal guys that will do wrong things~
     
    April 01

    scare!??!?!?!?!??

     
    recently donno why got so many scary movie..... why they all want to watch ah??
    izzit funny.... looking tat kind movie wont feel unpleasant meh???
     
    actually i not scare to watch tat kind movie.. really one.. believe me...
    just i don like to see those very ugly and terrible things... because the strong impressive feeling will effect my mind for a short period...
    it let me feel bad....
     
    scary april fool day.. heard tat got one girl intend to suicide... learn tat zhang guo rong?
    MC recently got a lot of things happen.... wat the~~~~
     
    tomb sweeping day.. i long time never go to sweeping the ancestor tomb liao.... donno... really no feeling to the people who i not familar.....
    for my father .. he sure need to sweeping grandfather tomb... but for me .... because when i was small... grandfather alr passed away...
     
    i think i would prefer to pray to those who i know but alr not around one.... because like this i just can understand the meaning for the tomb sweeping day....... or not cant catch the solemnity feeling.....
     
    everyone will get old..... and everyone will die.... no one can escape...
    after i die... how many people will remmeber me????
     
    donno write wat.. byebye
    March 29

    work for money.... work for life la....

     
    so hard to imagine my father can work for so many years....
    and able to earn money........
    last few day go back to chat with him......feel weird...
    izzit all father and son also cant chat properly one....
    he ask me .. then i answer only.... scare scare him one...
     
    haiz... later work liao.. one month salary only enough for own...
    hopefully he still young.... din ask me take money back........
    but later earn not much .... he will kill me??? who know??
    later scold me.. "give u so much money to study also no use".... haiz...
    Since i am the oldest son.... 
     
    sometime will think that.. i not the top student in school...
    i dont have the special technique..... just a normal person... izzit possible to earn money....
    if go work... later need to fight with many ppl who graduate in same course... some more diff school....
    so many people want earn money and become rich...
     
    now just 20++ years old... still got so long time to go and work.....
    who know....
     
     
     
    March 04

    First time - RUSH~


    last night... first time go clubbing  .....
    it cost RM660 for overall expenses......
    actually tat was for celebrating my birthday de..
    we got 13 people.. all guys...
    some of them drunken like 'die cat'.....

    one funny things... tat Fuzz.... one of my not familiar friend...
    after he drink tat 38% alcohol ...
    he pengsan already.. then he came to me and discussed about how to use juggernaut...hero of dota...
    hahahha.. it let me quite amazaing and happy...
    because i seldom talk to him.... but this time he direct came to me...
    i think he kept it for long time liao... haha.. really geng...blur blur liao still can discussed tat....

    second not funny things... tat tut... once drink must mabok one...not mabok not shiok...haha

    we went "rush".. nearby... quite a good place.....
    quite a good experience la... but i think i wont go often.....
    nothing let me play.... i only drink tat sprite....and the girl cant touch one...haha

    next time who want go clubbing.. tell me... i just only can drink sprite and other soft drink..
    i can be your driver... but u paid for me the entry fees~~ hehe....

    noted* to my sister... don tell others... and i received ur message liao..i will help u forward de....

    today.... do coding... also want vomit... haha. but learn a lot la....

    March 02

    MC suck!!!


    today i forgot to bring my cloth bag go wash...
    need to give RM 8 for it liao.... all about money...
    sien.....

    i donno wat causes of my block....
    donno why it always power cut one....
    suddenly work till half... cut of the power.. Really... let me feel want to scold people..

    today more teruk.. one of the car at my block... alarm system broken or wat la....
    it unstopping "yi o yi o yi o yi o yi o yi o yi o"......
    it cause my ear always has the rhythm of that kind alarm sound.....
    donno wat kind of that sound... who design it... So geng de....
    cant design with other kind of alarm sound meh...
    and doono who is the owner of that car..
    pls move ur car away la... since like not ur porblem one.....
    let it keep disturbing people for few hours..... even at midnight 3 oclock... fuck*****
    let me angry till sot sot.... i even heard some screaming sound from level 1 or 2 resident...
    he scream with the guang dong hua : !@#$%^&*........
    if i not mistaken .. one of the sentences is "pok gai, pin go ge che ah".......
    actually i want to reply him "mon hai wo ge".... but i scared been beaten by them... so i din do that....







    February 26

    Pudency!!!!

    Get ang pow from eldership...... let me feel happy
    but get it from others unfailiar people let me feel pudency.........

    that kind of feeling really not well..
    because people would think that i went there for money....
    especially saw a old old grandmother gave me the ang pow with her shaking hand...
    it let me feel i was guilty....

    if i not take.. it seem me no polite...
    haiz... quite a unforgettable experience....
    Conception different?!?!??!?!?

    Sometime confuse with the idea of -family-...
    why not help that can help? why not give that can give? why not !?!??!

    February 25

    Tonight i am so useless.

    Tonight so useless, everythings seem cant done smoothly......
    Cant write a proper document and cant print assignment....
    haiz.. really useless...

    not the point say i cant do the works..... the problem is the work cant archieved at that moment i want...
    that let me feel sad.... haiz...

    why i not plan ealier?!??! why not check properly?!??!?!
    haiz.........haiz........

    all friend back!!!

    first.. i want to said gong xi fa cai to all my beloved friend....
    it is very happy to see all friend come back~~~

    today start using this msn spaces...
    and lazy to write in chinese... so i trying to wirte in english...
    i know that my english very weird.. but pls forgive me and try understand the things i write... if u read it...

    today quite happy.... because last night go genting... but when back to PJ.. i miss the road.. pity..
    waste my time.... and i lose RM 60 in genting highlands....
    i was so unlucky .. wuwu.... i know why Uncle Lim so rich liao...
    because many of us "take care" him.....
    at the end... dono happy or not happy~

    This CNY  also need to gamble.... kinda culture of my life...
    if not gamble... feel that not celebrating tim~~

    ---Gamble is one of the culture of my life---